All this while I've been singin "my love will come" and now she has

(photos by Nidia, who is a really great photographer! and is really small like me hehehehe)

Lykke Li was extraordinary!!!!!!!!! Soufi, Nidia and I went together on Wednesday night. We had flowers for her, but they were taken away by a security lady. She told us to come back for it after and give it to Lykke Li later cause there would be a signing session, so it wasn't too bad. We walked into the concert hall and it was hazy and dim and mysterious and o ma gad the suspense made me so anxious. We went right down to the front row, where Soufi and I had our seats and waited as the rest of the hall started filling up. It was a hipster kid congregation, pretty much. Too many bowler hats, too many maxi skirts, too many judging eyes hahaha. But fuck it as long as I was in front row I was more than content. Soufi squeezed with Nidia in one seat once our row was filled and concerned security kept coming to tell us to sit where we were supposed to. We made friends with a boy who was sitting alone beside us because he and his friends were separated. He was really nice. It's only too bad that we didn't get his name :-( Soon Nidia had to go back to her seat and then it was just a matter of waiting.

We didn't wait for too long, though. The lights came down and Soufi, the boy and I rusheddddd right to the middle. We got stuck behind a first, first row, but I'm not complaining because our view was still amazing! Nidia also ran all the way from fucking row Q and joined us, that lucky girl. My heart was pounding and the strobe lights + suspense + eerie music made for very weak knees. Lykke Li's very good-looking band mates appeared and then Lykke Li herself appeared and we were all just screaming and screaming. She walked slowly to her mic stand and stood there in her long black dress and her head down and it just felt so dream-like. She started off with a hypnotic Jerome and I felt my heart swell and burst and I was in so much awe right there. I was in love. It was amazing. She was fucking beautiful live and we dance dance danced and didn't care. The boy we made friends with also danced along despite being with people he barely knew. These are the people I love at concerts.

Soufi and I were so happy that we could sing along to all of the songs other than the cover she did of Burt Bacharach's Please Stay. We were super worried before the show about forgetting lyrics or not knowing a song well enough but damn, I loved her setlist. It was Jerome > I'm Good, I'm Gone > Sadness is a Blessing > I Follow Rivers > Silent My Song > Dance Dance Dance > Please Stay > I Know Places > Little Bit > Love Out Of Lust > Rich Kids Blues > Youth Knows No Pain (+ apparently she sampled Kanye's Power) > Get Some. And then for the encore she sang Possibility and played the piano. It was heart-wrenching. Unrequited Love was the final song. One of the cutest moments for me was when Soufi and I turned to each other at the same time and shouted the first SHOOWAH SHOOWAH with hand gestures and everything in Unrequited Love.

I think my favourite was either Rich Kids Blues, Youth Knows No Pain, or Little Bit. There is a video we found on Youtube of her performance of Little Bit and we are in it! The guy who filmed it was standing right behind Nidia and Soufi. During the concert there were so many moments of eye contact between Lykke Li and I, and I would like to think it was because we were some of the more excited and openly appreciative kids there. Watch this video and compare us to 2:40. Really. Hahahahaha.

(Nidia's in white, Soufi's in green, I am in black and big glasses on the right but appear only sporadically.)

HAHAHA OK sorry I am being such a bastard but.... I wish crowds in Singapore were more energetic and less afraid of being judged, you know? This is my philosophy during concerts: Dance like a weirdo? I pass no judgement on you. In fact, I love you. Stand there like a tree? Ha ha stop being sucha pussy. I'm so glad we got right to the middle because the people around us were so awesome I didn't even know the rest of the crowd was like...... yeah. I mean, you're at a Lykke Li show. Take a couple of pointers from her and dance dance dance, dance while you can, dance cause you must!!! Even if you cannot dance (like me) dance cause you vill nevaaaar regret it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You'd regret not dancing. Really.

K dah lah I'm done preaching already.

K then after the last song, we tried to run out of the hall because the security lady who took our flowers advised us to get out early if we wanted to be one of the first in the line for autographs. Pushed a lot of people and naturally got a lot of protests and "BITCH!!!!!"s in response, but it was quite hilarious. Soufi is one heck of a muka tembok I tell you! She led the way through the crowd and was viciously shoving her way through. I um... tried to apologize hahahaha. We lost the nice boy along the way and didn't see him the rest of the night :-( I hope he found his friends.

After successfully escaping with our faces spared from any bitch-slaps, we jumped in the queue, got the flowers, and it was about twenty minutes to a half hour of waiting in line for our turn for the signing. I was nervous, but my heart was surprisingly calm. I gave her the flowers, got her to sign my sketchbook and got a hug from her :') She's shy in person and so fucking gorgeous. I can still feel her shoulders against mine. We hung around until the end of the signing session and there was one part where these two girls, Indonesian I think, led the crowd in singin Lykke Li a bit of her own Dance Dance Dance and played their ukuleles. I really wanted to cry.

I was so sad when she finally left. I was sad the rest of the way back to Soufi's home. Sadly took a shower and got a drink and fell asleep like a baby, according to Soufi hahaha. I was sad in the morning the next day. But sadness is a blessing and sadness is a pearl and sadness is my boyfriend whom I have pushed away for a few weeks but he came back sweet as ever yesterday. I have loved Lykke Li for four years and she has come so far since then. She sold out the whole concert hall Wednesday night. She's grown out of her fragile innocence and become something of an intense fountain of emotion, power, beauty and... sex. Hahahaha. Ya. K. Okay this was a great ending to my three week high. I am now ready to start serious studying for O levels. 33 days. Wish me luck!