it's a nuclear show and the stars are gone

Need to learn the art of being succinct, condensing my thoughts into readable, less intimidating chunks of words. My last few posts have been very............ long.............. I also need to teach my brain to work more quickly, because I'm not kidding when I say I have gotten "think faster" or "you must not take so long to formulate your thoughts" or "time management problems? please see teacher" more than ten times as comments in my exam scripts. I have no sense of urgency. I'm becoming too ~chill~ for this fast-paced time-starved world!!! NPCC and shouting "Where's your sense of urgency?!?" threateningly at juniors does not actually make me a very urgent person, after all.

Sigh.

It is Tuesday today and I am already so exhausted. I've been going home straight after school more often and it feels pretty good. I haven't gone into hardcore studying mode though. Once again, behold my lack of urgency. Everyone's talking about the guilt they feel when they don't spend their time studying and I'm just like, guilt? Wat dat? Hmm I can't wait for O's to be over but at the same time I am terrified of 24th October making its way here because I am so unprepared. Now I only have seven subjects left since I dropped A Math last week, so I really need to do well for the all of them. My prelim results have been very terrible and.. I don't feel anything. Something is wrong. Very wrong.

By the way, hello Syadza my bimbo friend! I hope this post is short enough for you.

Spent Sunday afternoon with this silly girl. Went to Suntec's Starbucks to lepak with a laptop, some potato salad and too many bottles of drinks. Had a nice time just like chillin' and like eatin' and like watchin' videos and hearin' the F1 race cars deafen the hell outta everyone and shit yeah. I am slightly obsessed with Radiohead's Lotus Flower now. The song is hypnotizing. Thom Yorke's dance is infectious. I wish I was a dancer. Or just uninhibited enough to not care about my awkward limbs.

Graduation is next Friday. My birthday's on Wednesday. Two weeks of mugging at home after that, and then we sit for the big Os. How how how tell me how?

OK bye need to bathe and make geography notes.